Wednesday, January 26, 2022

Renew

 Renew.  For the years I worked as an elementary librarian, it was a choice I heard multiple times a day.  Students, usually in the middle of a chapter book, who asked to renew for one more week so they could finish reading.  It was an option I was happy to honor as long as no one else had the book on hold or they hadn’t been hoarding it for the past 6 weeks.  However, it wasn’t exactly a word I expected to hear when I began to pray about what 2022 was going to bring.

 

The more I have thought and prayed about it though, the more fitting it seems to be.  I can’t lie, for the past few years I can’t exactly say I have been thriving, I have been stuck in much more of a survival mode.  Four years ago this month, (A) came out to a town in rural, southern Illinois for an interview at a church he was pretty excited about.  That began a year of moving and massive changes.  The next year we were barely settled and had a baby (b) and started adjusting to life as a family of 4.  That was followed by the (never-ending) pandemic where life as we knew it changed, our careers became more challenging, and we then decided to add one more sweet little (lk) to our tribe.  While I know I am incredibly blessed, I will often admit that sometimes our blessings overwhelm us.  I am mostly exhausted, burnt out, and frazzled.  And I find that after feeling that way for so long, it starts to take a toll on me.

Two of the three who wear me out and fill me up all at the same time!

 I realize there are many things I need to renew.  I have some dear relationships in my life that could use a renewal.  Passions I once thrived on have become “past memories” over the last few years, and my heart is telling me it is time for some of them to return.  I had former eating habits and exercise habits that I would love to renew.  My physical body could use some rest and renewal.  And the more I dug into my Bible the more I realized there are other ways I could renew as well…

              -renewing of your mind (Romans 12:2)

              -renew a steadfast spirit (Psalms 51:10)

              -renew my strength (Isaiah 40:31)

              -renew my life (Ruth 4:15)

And so, as 2022 begins, I’m constantly asking God to show me how He is going to renew me this year.  I will be honest, the first month of the year has already proven it’s share of challenges… making that promise of renewal even more sweet. 

Friday, January 7, 2022

The Best of 2021

 While some would be quick to kick 2021 out the door, I have to admit it sure brought some of the “good stuff” to our family.  I will admit, there were challenges- it was the most challenging year, professionally, of my career thus far, I faced a couple different scary health situations, and we found ourselves saying “goodbye” more times than I would prefer.  But it also brought some incredible blessings.  So, as I do each year… here are my favorites of 2021:


 

5.  Youth Rodeo Season 2

While (a) got a taste of youth rodeo in 2020, this year was an even more exciting adventure.  I watched him make some amazing friends and find mentors, he gained confidence and learned about perseverance, and he watched hard work pay off.  He got serious about practicing and realized that was the only way he was going to get better.  He let me find some “coaches” for him and listened to what they had to say.  He learned from older kids and loved cheering them on as he watched them compete.  This year also brought me some “rodeo mom friends” that I was seriously in need of, and allowed (a) and I a lot of special bonding time as we spent hours together at the barn roping his dummy.  We allowed (b) to compete in one event as well, and he is already preparing for summer 2022, where he has informed us he will “ride sheep!”  I always knew that some day my kids would find activities or sports they would want to be involved with, but watching it happen and all the “feels” and life lessons that come with it have been an amazing blessing to our family.



 4.  Starting Kindergarten

This past year brought a milestone- we joined the “big kid” parents’ club by sending our first child to kindergarten.  Not only is that a big step educationally and socially, I had some nerves about bringing him with me to my school.  I already knew his teacher is AMAZING, but I worried if he would want to lean on me too much since I am just across the hall or if he would be treated differently for being a “teacher’s kid.”  I should have known there was nothing to fear.  He has taken to kindergarten like a fish to water.  He LOVES learning, has made friends with nearly every student in the building, doesn’t complain about homework, and constantly looks for opportunities to extend his learning.  We are so thankful for the great start he has gotten, and while we don’t always remember to clean out his backpack each night, we feel like we are adjusting fairly well to the world of school.




 3.  2021 American Angus Convention

This fall we took our first, real, family vacation.  And while, sadly, we had to leave (b) at home because he could not wear a mask for travel or sit quietly through convention sessions, we still made some amazing memories and had some incredibly special experiences.  It was the first airplane ride (a) remembers, and the first one (lk) had ever been on, we enjoyed the historic Ft. Worth Stockyards, The Texas Cowboy Hall of Fame, the Cowgirl Hall of Fame, the NRS (National Ropers Supply) Ranch, and the guys took in the convention trade show as if it were another attraction.  It was fun to re-connect with Angus friends I hadn’t seen in a few years, and was super special to let (A) catch a glimpse of why the industry means so much to me.  He learned a lot, had a great time, and admitted he was starting to understand why I hold those people and my upbringing so very dear to my heart.  Our trip was topped off by being in the room as my dad was elected to the American Angus Association Board of Directors, and sharing in that celebration.  I had to take some personal days from school (which I RARELY ever do) for us to attend, and it was an important reminder to me that- while I am extremely committed to my job- my job is only one piece to my life, and sometimes there are things I need to prioritize over work.  That trip was a memory I believe I will hold on to forever.




2. Sibling Love

As we prepared to bring sweet #3 home to our family, I was very unsure how the dynamics would change with our children.  (a) has LOVED being a big brother to (b), so I was not worried about him.  He was very excited to meet his little sister and I knew he would be sweet and gentle with her.  (b) however, is pretty independent, cannot be bribed, and sometimes unimpressed with your efforts to do so, so I found myself wondering what he would think of the new baby.  My best guess was that he just wouldn’t be too interested.  Boy was I wrong! From the first afternoon (lk) came home, he has been completely in love with her.  He immediately was asking to hold her, always wanted to make sure she had a paci (even when she didn’t want one), and now that she is bigger he LOVES to make her laugh out loud.  The boys continue to be best friends, and together they ADORE their sister.  I know the day will come win sibling rivalry and fights will hit our house, but for now, I will soak in every minute of watching them together.  It is the sweetest thing in the whole world, and something I hold incredibly close to my heart.



 1.  Londyn Kate

Our hearts just knew there was supposed to be one more little, and she joined our family on April 19th.  She was by far the greatest blessing of 2021.  Our sweet girl smiles non-stop, flashes her dimples, and expresses herself by sticking her tongue out for many smiles.  She loves to laugh out loud, cuddle, and by now has started crawling all over the place.  She has learned how to keep her brothers in line by pulling their hair when she needs her space, and yet knows how to soothe your soul with a smile and a snuggle.  While I REALLY thought I wanted a third boy, as always God knew best.  Having a sweet little girl has been a lot of fun for all of us, and I look forward to the days of attending women’s retreats together, going on shopping trips, and hope that she will help make sure we are taken care of when we get old.  The last few weeks before her arrival got a little tricky for my health, and were reminders of my priorities.  I had to slow down, prioritize what was important, learn to accept help, and trust God in the timing.  Our little girl brought with her lessons I still needed to learn, even in my third time around as a Mama.  We thank God for her every day.






With its ups and its downs, 2021 was still a year to be thankful for.  It was a precious reminder that “Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the Heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows.” James 1:17

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